Maria, I love you.

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Since Gabriel is too busy with his other website, I will try my best to actually blog again on this site. I honestly want to just do everything on this website, but at the same time I prefer to have both Gabriel and I blog!

1.1.11

2010 was another amazing year with my mahal. I am looking forward to a new journey with you in 2011. I'm thankful for everything we have accomplished together and many more to come. We have had our ups and downs in 2010, but we have always seem to work things out because we love each other deeply. I want to become a better person for you, myself, and our relationship.

My mahal, I just want you to know that you don't need to change anything about yourself because everything about you is amazing! You have taught me everything there is to know about love and I hope that we will continue to love, cherish, and care for each other in 2011. I believe that God is guiding us by allowing us to have Faith, Hope, and Love for one another. I do not know what I would do without you, Gabriel!

I love you, Gabriel!

You leave me BREATHLESS

.B R E A T H L E S S.

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How Im thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You dont even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that youre mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you give me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

God Bless

I dedicate this song to you my mahal. I thank God for you!!!! I love you!!

My Angel Gabriel

I don't know what I would do without you! You mean the world to me and you have become a part of my life. I am very thankful and blessed to have you in my life. God sent me an angel named Gabriel. It is you all along who will make me happy in love and life. Thank you~!

My night spent in the ER.

Who would have ever thought that I would go to the emergency room? I was scared out of my mind. I wasn't feeling well yesterday afternoon. My back was throbbing and I had such bad abdominal pain. I thought I was able to tolerate the pain, but I couldn't anymore. I thought I was dying because of the pain I was feeling. I told Gabriel that late afternoon about my backache and that I wanted to sleep early so that I wouldn't have to feel the pain anymore. Furthermore, as I was trying to make myself fall asleep I felt the pain continued. I can't explain the pain that I was going through. It either felt like someone was trying to rip my insides out or it was being squeezed so hard. It also felt like someone was poking me with billions of needles. And so, I forced myself to get out of bed and tell my dad that my stomach was hurting real bad. My Dad told me that he would take me to the Emergency Room; I told Gabriel that I am going to the ER and asked him If he could go with me.

We went to Torrance Memorial Emergency room and when I got there, Gabriel was already there! I think I checked myself in around 8:30 pm. They took blood and urine test from me, which I think was very exhausting. I felt really tired and vulnerable. I was laying in bed shivering, cold, and most of all scared. When the Doctor came in the room he told me that they were going to do an abdominal scan and an ultra sound. After the scan I waited in the room for a long while. I was getting very impatient because I wanted to know the result already. I kept texting Gabriel and my Dad. I text them everything that was going on because I did not want them to worry and be nervous. Moreover, when the results came back for the abdominal scan, they found that I have an Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst (left side of my ovary) meaning when a blood vessel in the wall of a cyst breaks, causing blood to flood into the cyst. When the doctor told me that I have an Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst I suddenly felt worried, nervous, and scared. At first I didn't know what it was but when the nurse explained it to me, I felt a little more at ease, but I was still nervous.

After the conversation I had with the doctor and the nurse, they took me to ultrasound to check for the Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst. After all the test and scan I had to go through, they released me around 12:45ish. I was so glad that everything was over with. The Doctor told me that I need to follow up with my own doctor so that she can monitor the cyst. They also gave me a prescription drug called "VICODIN", but I told the nurse that I'd rather have an otc drug because Vicodin is too strong for me, and I might get addicted to it.

In all honesty, when I was in the emergency room, my mind was all over the place. I thought about my Dad, Mom, and Gabriel sitting in the waiting room waiting for me. I thought about how blessed I am to have such wonderful parents and boyfriend. I also thought about how I didn't want them to worry about me because I didn't want them to feel nervous and scared. And I don't know If I am overreacting but I thought about my life and how much I am thankful for everything. I also thought about my life with Gabriel and how much he means the world to me. It's then I really realized how much I LOVE GABRIEL so much and that's when I really knew that God sent me an Angel named GABRIEL. All these emotions came over me. I know that it is just an ovarian hemorrhagic cyst, but it's inside me and it's growing and I don't like it at all.