You leave me BREATHLESS

.B R E A T H L E S S.

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How Im thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You dont even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that youre mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you give me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still cant believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

God Bless

I dedicate this song to you my mahal. I thank God for you!!!! I love you!!

My Angel Gabriel

I don't know what I would do without you! You mean the world to me and you have become a part of my life. I am very thankful and blessed to have you in my life. God sent me an angel named Gabriel. It is you all along who will make me happy in love and life. Thank you~!

My night spent in the ER.

Who would have ever thought that I would go to the emergency room? I was scared out of my mind. I wasn't feeling well yesterday afternoon. My back was throbbing and I had such bad abdominal pain. I thought I was able to tolerate the pain, but I couldn't anymore. I thought I was dying because of the pain I was feeling. I told Gabriel that late afternoon about my backache and that I wanted to sleep early so that I wouldn't have to feel the pain anymore. Furthermore, as I was trying to make myself fall asleep I felt the pain continued. I can't explain the pain that I was going through. It either felt like someone was trying to rip my insides out or it was being squeezed so hard. It also felt like someone was poking me with billions of needles. And so, I forced myself to get out of bed and tell my dad that my stomach was hurting real bad. My Dad told me that he would take me to the Emergency Room; I told Gabriel that I am going to the ER and asked him If he could go with me.

We went to Torrance Memorial Emergency room and when I got there, Gabriel was already there! I think I checked myself in around 8:30 pm. They took blood and urine test from me, which I think was very exhausting. I felt really tired and vulnerable. I was laying in bed shivering, cold, and most of all scared. When the Doctor came in the room he told me that they were going to do an abdominal scan and an ultra sound. After the scan I waited in the room for a long while. I was getting very impatient because I wanted to know the result already. I kept texting Gabriel and my Dad. I text them everything that was going on because I did not want them to worry and be nervous. Moreover, when the results came back for the abdominal scan, they found that I have an Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst (left side of my ovary) meaning when a blood vessel in the wall of a cyst breaks, causing blood to flood into the cyst. When the doctor told me that I have an Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst I suddenly felt worried, nervous, and scared. At first I didn't know what it was but when the nurse explained it to me, I felt a little more at ease, but I was still nervous.

After the conversation I had with the doctor and the nurse, they took me to ultrasound to check for the Ovarian Hemorrhagic cyst. After all the test and scan I had to go through, they released me around 12:45ish. I was so glad that everything was over with. The Doctor told me that I need to follow up with my own doctor so that she can monitor the cyst. They also gave me a prescription drug called "VICODIN", but I told the nurse that I'd rather have an otc drug because Vicodin is too strong for me, and I might get addicted to it.

In all honesty, when I was in the emergency room, my mind was all over the place. I thought about my Dad, Mom, and Gabriel sitting in the waiting room waiting for me. I thought about how blessed I am to have such wonderful parents and boyfriend. I also thought about how I didn't want them to worry about me because I didn't want them to feel nervous and scared. And I don't know If I am overreacting but I thought about my life and how much I am thankful for everything. I also thought about my life with Gabriel and how much he means the world to me. It's then I really realized how much I LOVE GABRIEL so much and that's when I really knew that God sent me an Angel named GABRIEL. All these emotions came over me. I know that it is just an ovarian hemorrhagic cyst, but it's inside me and it's growing and I don't like it at all.

My poor Foofoo!

I'm sitting here in the emergency waiting room at Torrance Memorial hospital waiting to hear from Maria. She had been complaining earlier that her back was hurting and that she wasn't feeling well. Later in the evening she appeared on the webcam almost in tears and said she was going to the emergency room because her stomach really hurt. I instantly was worried and rushed over to the hospital, even beating her there.

Maria, if your reading this, I love you so much! I know it's not like your seriously injured or hurt. But the moment I heard you were in pain I had this huge rush of emotion come over me. I wanted to hold you and some how make you feel better. I wanted to coddle you and tell you everything is going to be okay. I wanted to be okay. It was yet another moment in time when I was 110% completely sure that I love you with all my heart. I sort of feel helpless sitting here with your parents in the waiting room, waiting for you. I just want you to be better. I promise I will always take care of you! And I will always be there for you in anyway that I can.

Knowing that your on the other side of the door, waiting, scared... makes me want to cry.

I love you Maria! With all of my heart, to the moon and back!